Super duper stress especially when V drives dad's car. And being so cautious when driving it. And this morning having dates with Wendy babe for breakfast and lunch, and..and..and...V got the car scratched with another same model, same colour, same car date launch and she's friend of Wendy. _(-.-) _ And, V had just been so careful since the early morning and who knows, still get it scratched. And, V thinks am gonna repeatedly using "AND" when V got nervous. _(-.-)_
hmph..
However, one of Wendy's twin brother said it's nothing big deal, just have to get it polished and everything will be fine. But, still worry lor..
Because of my perspective of dad's character, his facial expression will changed when he heard the news, saying nothing and the first thing he will go and see the condition of how bad it was. And, yeap.. got it so correct.
At first, V is being honest telling him the truth and he was eating his snacks while watching Tv programme. Next, his expression really changed, stand up, took the car keys, walk out the door, see the condition of the car, and drive away. Saying nothing. _(-.-)_
At least scold me or say something to make me feeling better. Feeling so guilty until wanna burst out my tear. Booo hooo hooo...
Yes, am a bit pampered or maybe too much pampered by the adults. Cannot cope with stress, and this is my weakness. But V had putting so much effort to overcome the stress, and still learning.
And, of cause V knows how someone would feel when their beloved things that treasure a lot had been destroyed by others.
Daddy, I'm so sorry. Really sorry. Not in purpose.
Oh, and got my punishment, which is washed and polish the car. _(-.-)_
V deserves it. Sigh...
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Am so not motivated by anything and everything, even dreaming also very tired. _(-.-)_
Not motivated in doing anything even though my favorite hobby, painting and traveling. Gosh!!What happened??
I missed her, so much.
It's already been 2 weeks she's gone, but still V misses her. Missing the day bringing her for dog-walking, missing the day talking with her, missing the day having some competition sees who reach home first, missing the day she begs to play with her, missing the day she's been so arrogant when some puppies bark on her, missing the day she eats frog (grosssss).
She scares lightning and thunder. She hates fireworks while we loving it. She loves to sleep beside the washing machine, she's always being tolerate to milk-tea, but sometimes complained to me when milk-tea grabbed her foods.
She's clever and very pretty. 
Can't forget about you, my dear Ruby. Thanks God for bringing you into our home. You are cute when you were here at the first time while i was small and named you Snowball, because you are indeed small, round, and white-fluffy-little-cute-thing.
You were growing up fast, and a little naughty that time. I was sorry sometimes i scolded you when you made my clothes dirty as i know you didn't mean to and you just want to play with me. Back to some time, you managed to escape from the back, but was unlucky because you fall into the big drain. We were all looking for you and found you with dark-and-stinky smell, and we all bathed you.
Also, you were being loyal and responsible to us. You trying to protect us when anyone approached but sometime you betrayed just because the opposite was your type (hahahaha). I still couldn't understand one thing of yours..you really like frogs? Even it was died and dried??How come??
Anyway, I'm so lucky to have you when there is no one at home but you made companion. You listened to me sometime and i could feel that you understand what I'm talking about. You get quiet and still when I'm crying, just staring but with the sad-feeling through your eyes. And you do comfort me by listening.
You were always there for me, but I'm not there for you,always. Especially when furthering my study to other city. You know, looking out through the window had become an used to. Just to see what you are doing outside the window.
I miss you.
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My conclusion is, stop looking backward, V.
@1.
V received a heart warming call from grandfather. He actually asked why V had stopped study and whether this is really my final decision. I also don't know. Just let the time convince me. Anyway, thanks for grandfather's concern. And this is actually the very first time grandfather cares about V. **touch**
If time could reversed, sure i will not making this decision of withdrawing my study.
@2.
V was getting Ruby's photo uploaded to V's white prince. V missed her so much and still could remembered everything of her. From the time adopting her since she's a pup until very old. Even her last breath. That's the first time V had cried so hard after a death. She's not only playing a role of a pet but also a best friend, my best listener.
If time could reversed, i will spend more time with her. Playing with her.
Many times, V had been thinking reversely. Looking backward to see what V had lost and gained during all these years. And many things V should had put some guts and courage to state out everything V had in the mind, including scolding back the lecturer who had totally insulted me in front of the class. So far V had not seen him and will never see him again, V should had told him to shut up his mouth in front of his face. _(-.-)_
Also, had been made the wrong decision every time. If dad could ever dare to put me into the situation of a big and independent girl, V should had another bright sky of herself. But everything had gone to the other side. Many things could be avoided if only parents listen to their kids. Unluckily, not my parents. _(-.-)_
Anyway, too much of emotion and depress lately. Just remember and always remind myself to treasure everything and every moment that V used to have. Things could passed in a blink and never take things for granted.
P/s: Based on the above, were only my opinion and based on my situation. Thanks for reading.
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Being a very naughty and explosive girl yesterday. Am apologize for being ridicule.Anyway, V should had been celebrating the age of 3 of Vdreamland, instead of scolding and being so expressive. Too much emotion yesterday and again, V is apologizing.
Thinking of either going to Secret Recipe celebrating or any Kopitiam to watch football. Hard to choose. _(-.-)_Maybe, just staying at home waiting for boy to online. _(-.-)_
I know, i know..the quality of the photo is not good. _(-.-)_Well, Happy Birthday to Vdreamland, and thanks for the support dreamers. Love y'all!CHeerrssxoxograce.via
Yes, I wanna say something as to state out things that i felt not right or i totally hate of. Yes, it may be rude or not good to be written it out or to say it out, right now I'm in the middle of VERY-ANGRY-situation. So, pardon me!! (if you feel not right or unwell, please just close it.)
@1. Am gonna shout :" GET OUT OF MY WAY, YOU B***H!! PISSED OFF. STOP STEPPING ON MY TAIL OR AM GONNA BITES!! YES, YOU MAY THINK YOU ARE OPEN MINDED AND THAT'S YOUR PROBLEM. STOP ACTING LIKE A WHORE BECAUSE I'M FEELING SO SICK OF YOU!!Please behave of yourself!!"(for the person: if you know who you are, and if you ever read my blog.)
@2. Hates to give the impression of good and obedient girl because everyone is taking over my world!!
@3. So unfair of everything in my life and stop happening again cause its torturing me.
@4. Stop doing anything behind or pretend you are innocent when things happened. An apologize would be better than anything else and stop behave like that!
@5. I have my rights to speak out my mind!!
@6. I NEED CONFIDENT.
That's all what i wanna said.
p/s: Excuse me, dreamers. I try not to be mean but it's really making me angry and mad!! Also, have been keep silence for so long and now exploring.
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