something..

it is hard to get to know people well..
but it is harder than to get people to know you well..
and what is to believe, what is not?

i am sad when no one believe me and tell me lies..
something that don't have to explain to make it true or else it is a lie..
because it is hurt when i found out that it's a lie..

i rather except the truth that hurts than telling me a lie to avoid me from getting hurt..
that's not trying to save me and prevent me from hurt..
that's not the way i could tell..
please stop fooling around and make me a moron..

bon??pas mal??

hmmm.. terrible cny for me !!
being sick since the 1st day of cny..
i started to cough at night.. yet the next day..
flu is coming.. and then the 3rd day.. follow up by snizzy nose~
guess they coming to take ang pao from me??
hahhaha.. anyway they are paying visit on chinese new year~!!
yeay??? happy to year to them anyway!!

oh gosh..
a bit bored cos being put out the plane by friends.. good then..
think on the positive way..
maybe its better for me to have a rest!!
thank you then~!!!

hahazz
anyway.. tonight having dinner with my cg members here!!
happy new year to all!!

still got 2 more days left!!
waiting for ya~!!

bonne annee chinois!!

yay.. happy chinese new year!!!
but aint feel that happy..
cos i really feel my spiritual life just like the economic growth~!
having my demand curve downward slopping since new year..
i wish i could get back to my life over there..
help me lord~

really bored up here in the room!!

korean coming~

today.. when i woke up in the morning (probably noon)
as i am having my lunch over the table, in front of the computer watching a movie..
there was someone pressing on the bell..
ding... dong...
i opened up the door and saw there are 2 person standing in front of me..
they asked :" is there any church somewhere around here?"
i was like stunt.. i was wondering who will looking for a church on Thursday?
ain't suppose to have a church on Sunday..??
however i told them there are some churches around..
without a second thought, they asked me whether i am a Christian?
no doubt.. i am..
immediately they told me they wanted to share a verse with me..(but there are verses~)
Ok..fine.. go ahead.. i said
(not to forget to mention that they are Christian from Korea.. and speaking a Korean-tone English with me which i found it was interesting)
when they took out the bible, which is a Korean-english bible, one of them told me.. this is " the prophecy"..
................ (i wonder)
so they shared 3 verses with me..from chap.Revelation, chap. Mattew, and errr.. i forgot~
they told me whether i know who is the bribe of Jesus? and they said it is important to know because.....(confidential)... -just important- and they told me the the wife of the lamb which is equal to the bribe that is the Holy City of the Jerusalem..and at the end they give me a notes which mention the Sabbath day.. and left behind with there name and phone number..
i closed the door and read the note that given to me..
the Sabbath day... hmmm..
as i read it say.. the Sabbath day, which is the seventh day of the week is Saturday, as for the Sunday is the first day of the week..(anyway..got to share this on my next blog..not here)

anyway.. the 2 Koreans are brave enough i can say..
they coming from such a far place and coming here, our country to spread the gospel..
they ain't speak well in English, and they don't know well the place..
but they know the word of GOD and the work of GOD..
they willing to do it for GOD..
and we, as the Christian in our own country..never do this for our people in the country..
we have to learn..

les miserable

everything was a mess!! unpredictable messy..
no one ever knew what am i thinking about..
always saying out the words but never think that it hurts a lot..
speak a lot..but no one ever know the true story was..
they see everything on their side but never view things on my side..
judges, critics, and opinions..
just like the arrows shoot on me..
and leave me alone in the battlefield with wounds..
no one ever know that i'm still alive..

some others shares their happiness..
but they never knew that it brings jealousy..
laughters, joy, and happiness..
but it never cheers me up..
again and again..
i was dumped in a party..

days after days..
disaster strike onto my world..
people see it as a good things..
but never knew that its not to me..
congrates upon me..
but i never give back a smile.. but tears..

i step back into the world of disappointed..
i wish , i hope...
everything was a lie..
but still a fact in reality world..
i'm tired... freaking tired..