les miserable

everything was a mess!! unpredictable messy..
no one ever knew what am i thinking about..
always saying out the words but never think that it hurts a lot..
speak a lot..but no one ever know the true story was..
they see everything on their side but never view things on my side..
judges, critics, and opinions..
just like the arrows shoot on me..
and leave me alone in the battlefield with wounds..
no one ever know that i'm still alive..

some others shares their happiness..
but they never knew that it brings jealousy..
laughters, joy, and happiness..
but it never cheers me up..
again and again..
i was dumped in a party..

days after days..
disaster strike onto my world..
people see it as a good things..
but never knew that its not to me..
congrates upon me..
but i never give back a smile.. but tears..

i step back into the world of disappointed..
i wish , i hope...
everything was a lie..
but still a fact in reality world..
i'm tired... freaking tired..

14 minutes blog~

okay.. im here to babling a bit before i end my time in surfing the net for my presentation work on this friday!!
so.. im so tired as i waked up early this morning and till now i haven't got a rest yet!!
anyway.. put that aside first..

hmmm..
through today mass in church..the message our REV. Lau had given us..
i really learned a lot of things.. should be said.. i knew something that i questioned myself and GOD everytime..
till today..those i've been confused for a year and GOD answered today!
thanks to GOD!!
i knew and still im trying my best to do the best in my life and i knew i responssible for it..
don't you guys realise that life is so beautiful??
as we follow what GOD wants us to do in order we doing what we want to do.. we will feel that its joyous although its hard for us to do those things when we are unwilling to do it..
however after u have done it.. everything is worth!!
trust me!!

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okay.. im answering a phone call from my beloved mum..
so here i left less than 1 minutes..
so i guess..
that's it!!

se3 ya!

what drives ur life??

everyone's life is driven by something..so...what's urs???

right now,you and i may be driven by a problem, a pressure, or a deadline~!!lolzZz..!!perhaps,you may be driven by a painful memory, a haunting fear or unconscious belief..!!anyway..,there are several things that can drive your life..
first of all,many people are driven by guilt..!!people spending their entire lives running for regrets and hiding their shame..and allowing their past to control their future..most people today wandering through life without a purpose..~!!secondly,many people driven by resentment and anger..!!most of us hold on to hurts and never get over them..``!!resentment always hurts you more than it does the person you resent..!! "-those who have hurt you in the past cannot continue to hurt you now unless you hold on the pain through resentment``!!your past is past!! nothing will change it..!!you only hurting youeself with your bitterness..!!so, for your own sake,learn from it, and then let it go :) ``!!-"
next, many people are driven by fear..``!!fears may be result in many ways..~regardless of the cause, fear-driven people often miss great opportunities because they afraid to venture out``!!instead of playing safe,people avoiding risks and trying to maintain the status quo..!!
many people are driven by materialism..~~!!their desire to acquire becomes the whole goal of their lives.!!this drive to always want more is based on the misconceptions that have more will make yourself more happy,more important,and more secure, but all 3 ideas are untrue!!!possessions only provide temporary happiness...!!things do not change always,and we eventually become bored with them and then want newer,bigger,better versions...!!
lastly,many people are driven by the need for approval..!!people who are driven by peer pressure, always worried by what others might think..!!those who follow the crowd usually get lost in it..!!

well,this probably taken out from "the purpose driven life"..and it's useful for everyone in our lifes..!!esp for those who needs it..!!cant avoid to admit that these had taught me a lot..!!or even more than that``!!

anyway,what drives ur life??think about it``!!

congrates..

something joyous is happening~
just got the news that my secondnary school's choir won the champion in Kuala Terengganu last week~!! thumbs up to my juniors~~
lolz.. and congratulation to all``~!!
of cause..to my friend, Desmond, who had been the conductor for the choir team..
u are great!!!
our team, again win for the champion after my year in 2005..and i knew last year the choir team had lost in the competition...
how sad i couldn't have to take a visit there and watch the competition.. the team must be good enough..
owwwwwhhhhh..i miss choir..
well..singing is part of my favaourite..
i bet Ms. Maria and Ms. Jenny were happy~ and of course having celebration some other time at the end of the year..!!
hooosssshhhh...how i wish to join them..
missing the old time having fun around with my friend in that choir although sometimes it was a hard time..
we have tears, sweat and laughters all along the practice...
sweet memories i could say..
lolz
anyway..got to drop off..
having my french test soon~~

A bientot!!

being heedless??

i'm frustrated and having a hectic life.....again~ duh~~
i am wondering.. how could someone able to cheat and 'touching-fish' from others and yet they still can act like nothing happened or not their faults??? and even...think that they are not wrong at all..???
some others still keep on giving the advice to you..and on the other hand they had done something that u have never ever think that they will do something totally out of your mind??!!!
well.. i agree that i'm being headless and easily trusting other people~!! although someone keep telling what they had done and the worst ever things that i've done was that i'm protecting them and keep try to 'brain-wash' them..!!and that i thought that is my sister fault being so curious just like a cat!!
anyway..now i know that i have wrong trusting to the "leeches"..
so advice to all..
never ever trust anyone unless u really know who they are and what they are likely to be!!!